I lied.


Im down here playing the computer when im not supposed to. >:(
I think i have little self-control.


Anyway, i think i have lots of things to do after the exams. & one of them includes a trip to the Botanic Gardens! :D I seriously need my brother's handphone lah! He's damn idiot you know. He hid his phone away somewhere cause he's so selfish. I need to get the jerseys done, do some craft, spend more time, buy my slippers, do more TYS, learn shi jie mo ri on the piano, colourfy my already colourful room, make onigiris, try surprises, be more filial, eat at 85market with father, meet up with cousin, explore Raffles, shopping at Vivo, and more! :D Meanwhile, i shall..

This is crazy lah. Im having school in like 5? hours time and im supposed to be sleeping at this godly hour cause im tired and im gonna have a long day tomorrow. I dont know what suddenly got over me to be blogging now but yeah, im most likely staying off the computer for the next few weeks or maybe just days. I need to study and work hard cause i need to prove that i can handle * and studies together. Actually its quite tough you know cause my friend even made me dawn on the fact that i seem to be neglecting my studies because im too damn tired to study at night. Actually this is gonna be a challenging period coming up for me, we'll be struggling. I will see what i can do because Before, During & After this period will need much emotional effort. Lol! I dont think anyone actually really understands what im actually talking about but nah, its alright not to know. Hahaha. To read words in a whole chunk is actually very straining for the eyes dontcha agree?

Excuse me sir I think I am lost .

Excuse me sir I think I am lost .

1. Go to Google Maps
2. Click on "Get directions"
3. From New York
4. To Paris
5. Read line # 23.


If you laugh, comment & repost this on your blog.

Hello! :D

Seriously lack of updates hor. Anyway, the past week was not too bad. Few tests compared to the upcoming week. Sports Day was just on Friday and like so predictable. No one had the mood to cheer except most of the Sec 1s. You can see that every year, most of the ones cheering are the lower sec students. The upper sec students seriously do not bother much lah. That was the last Sports Day with NAS too. And i think im not going to miss it because of the dumb location and all. Jurong Stadium!!! HELLO?! I think the school could do better with the shuttle bus lah. Lunch at Fish n Co. :) I like the tartar sauce. Reminds me of the Cello and Bass gathering at the Glass House too. Left early while the rest were still shopping. I dont like that face Jiasui always gives me when i pangseh her/the rest. :P Sad lah. I will be very very lovesick for the upcoming week.


And im gonna have a busy week ahead cause i have like 4 quite major tests next week and chemistry and physics SPA. The class jerseys aint done yet and i cant seem to find the time to go check out the jerseys. I think im living life like a robot.

This reminds me of a quote i found in some year 2000 Reader's Digest i stole from the school library.

"You've got to enjoy life and not get bogged down with daily routine, or your existence becomes dull." - Mstislav Rostropovich



So far, its still impossible.


And when i grow up, i want to live life to the fullest.

So i finally understand whats wrong with this family. Its that age gap between us. & duh theres of course an age gap between every child and her parents but the thing is that my parents are likely, maybe ten years older than other parents of children around me. And so its because of this age gap that i realise why i do not choose to confide in them. Because of this conservative family, i've learnt to keep things inside me and just shut up when it comes to personal matters. I believe we've only touched on the topic of puberty stuff like only 2-3 times only. Even topics on friends & relationship i've never told them anything before, & i dont think i will ever learn to talk about it with them. Sometimes i just wonder what kind of family is this. Its like so superficial, that kind of closeness other people see in us. I know of an example, where the child is able to talk freely about anything to the mother but she does not get much freedom when going out. This is like the difference between my mother and other mothers. My parents dont really care much about the friends i hang out with, or maybe they do ask. Just that i really dont wanna tell them. Its like, im not willing to share anything inside of me.

Even just now when i asked my father whether he would like to watch Mr Bean's movie with me, oh please, he said whats so nice about it. You know, i believe the last time our whole family watched a movie together was like Die Another Day. And it was because of my mum's company function thats why that chance. So if i didnt count that movie, the last movie really watched together should be jurassic park. How pathetic it is. Theres so many things recently which made me think of my childhood. I know someone who had a sad childhood, and that someone really can recall many stuff that happened. Actually im abit envious, i used to tell people i cant remember much of my childhood. And now i realise why, there's really nothing much to remember of my childhood. Its like so insignificant, like there's nothing important to remember of.

And i know that my brother isnt comfortable talking about stuff with the parents too. He's even worse than me, i realise.




The mother often touches me when she's asking something. Like putting her hand on my shoulder when she's asking what do i want to eat for dinner. And always, i repeat, i always shrink away from her touch. It irks me how she's touching me. I even told her just now to stop touching me. This family is like so superficial, no emotional value in it. Im starting to dislike going home.





Pathetic.


Pathetic family.

GOLD FOR SYF! xD!

So yesterday was an eventful day. More people now know about that not-so-secrety-secret. :D &i found out that we were quite obvious too.


Anyway, my brain almost exploded yesterday night. Standard procedure after any co concert - zi char at 201 with the co people. Only that yesterday was really so many people. Was late for Chemistry tuition. Had like super no mood after that cause its like, i still dont like my parents forcing me to go for tuition when i really really am so exhausted. Reached home only at 10.20. &so i ended up sleeping while trying to study for history test. Asshole. So i only studied for 1hour and 10mins this morning. I didnt even do that zuo wen lah. I realised i really really love freedom. So aquarius-style of me. I think im feeling more and more like Cousin.


Someone said i sleep-talked. REALLY MEH!?!?!